i ve been rotting at home for the today and both ytd.

i realise.
i became really emo after the cultural night.
everything played a part.

i just feel so lost.
i have no sense of direction anymore.

no idea how to go on.
where to move on.
for goodness sake.

will somebody pls enlighten me?
why arent u there when i need u?
why must part?

why.
why.
why.
why.

and more whys.

oh gosh.
wads happening.

again.
i dread going back to school.
facing all the people.

living a life i totally dread.
but.
what can i do?

life's hard and tough on me.

i mean like.
why me?

why must everything happen on me?
all the unhappiness.
all the bads.
all the cons.

i mean there is 6 billion ppl out there.
why me?

its just aint right.

i see ppl happy.
i am happy for them.
sad for myself.

i tried to change.
not like i havent.
i tried all my might.
what i could do i gave it what i ve got.

but nthing had change.
mayb for a single bit.
but not for the good to me.
or .
not to my advantage.

at the end of the day.
i can only conclude.

life's tough and hard on me.
why?

i dunno.