Went cycling at East Coast, it's SUPER tiring after that.
I am dead beat now.
Just now when cycling is energetic der lorh.
I am currently closin my eyes to type.
Too Tired.
I am waiting for Jerlin to upload the pictures.
Including ytd ones.
Today never really take any pictures though.

Too tired to continue.

To be continued..

Was out the whole afternoon for teacher's day stuff and all.
Had fun but its tiring.

Took pictures at the end.
Quite abit of Ass shots hahas.
I cannot find my phone cable.
I didn't lose it.
It ran away.

LOL.

I ll start my phone cable hunt now.
Bye!

Decided to post my results.
Too bored and don't want to let my mind wander too much.

English 17/30 C5
Chinese 76/100 A1
E Maths 29/50 C5
A Maths 25/50 C6
E Geog 12.5/50 C6
History 22/25 A1
Chemistry 45/50 A1
Physics 27.5/50 C5
L1R5: 18

Full of Cs.
Told dad i had three A1s.
He said : out of eight three As. then he gave those kind of asshole laugh. sounds like hmph.
I guess my teenage life will be full of my dad.
He keep repeating his irritating story of whatever he did in his teenage years that made him the way he is now.
He don't want me to follow his steps.
He simple don't understand that i won't.


Whatever.
Lets not start on my dad.
Hope to drag him to Meet the Parent session.
Hope Ms Chan could talk some sense into him.

I urge all 'Harry Potter' fans to finish watching the Series.
If not you will think Prof Snape is some asshole bad guy.
Actually he is v noble.
He is a good man. He did all those stuffs to PROTECT Harry Potter and Lily Potter!
Prof Snape is a 100% good person.

HE IS A GOOD GUY :D

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Just reached home.
Dad OBVIOUSLY is bushuang with me.
My dad had been a real ass this few days.

Talked and played the whole afternoon.
Just a normal day out.

CaoShaoYan and LauZhiHao keep laughing at me -.-
Shaoyan wants me to play the ball with him then i miss he laugh at me.
Kick wrong direction also laugh at me
Even ZhiHao does that.
ZhiHao some more, Eh Gk you want to practice arh?
LOL! Bit walao eh LOL.

Maths Homework is WOOHOO.
Ms Tan bian say love us bian add on homework.
Super Hardcore.
She hear hard core as pa tuo LOL.

They say Ms Tan like my best friend LOL.
Anything larh.
Have maths teacher as best friend not bad leh.
At least dunno maths ask her.
LOL.

Ok i want to go watch Chnnl 8 and Chnnl U der last EP.
Left 15 mins.

Bye!

Nothing you so can actually salvage the harm you incur.
I may not be one of the most affected ones but i can feel the difference.
Move on, nothing you do is going to bring things back as how it was.
Don't reminisce, it's not going to help.

Things change, people moves on.
It's not our fault that you threw the chance she gave you.
You had two chances before things turned ugly.

You did not make full use of it.
It's too late to think back now.

Shut this big drawer that contained memories of six of us tight in your heart.
Don' open it anymore, it's just going to pain you.
Don't look back.
We still had a year ahead, look forward, think what can save you out of this situation now.
I will pray and wish for you.

'After a whole round of beating round the bush, we end up with pain and memories'
Like i said pictures speak a thousand words, it will stab you thousand times.
Don't look at them anymore. It will stab you a thousands times worse then replays of postive memories of us together.

We may not be close.
You have my wishes.
Take care.

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School is alright.
Me'mory is staying with me tonight.
Can't have enough laughter of it.

Hope i don't forget to bring Me'mory to school tmr!
Lots of homework undone ):

Go away.
I cannot bear to think again.

I don't know what to do to stop thinking.
It's just painful.
Other than that, i don't know how to describe.

Save me will you?

I cannot stop myself from trying to log on.
But i will always end up with a permission denied.
I hate you for removing that.
At least you knew i would try.
Maybe you are just protecting me from knowing more, from reminiscing.

I hope its that.
But maybe you should not.
Not knowing whats happening to you makes me jumpy.
I want to know if it was just me or what.

I cannot stop trying to hope.

I can finally what people mean by pictures speaks a thousand words.
Because when you see a picture that hurts you,
The pain stabs you a thousand times.

That's just how much it hurts.

Ok its lame but.
If you noticed, the timing for my last post it my birthday!
11.14

Cool.

Common Tests are over:D
Enjoy while we still can.
EYEs are on the way!

Dad's new car is coming today!
I'll post both old and new car pictures when blogger is not that sucky.

It's really nice to gain control back on.
My life and everything.
Have been quite a wreck due to CT.
And all the things that had been happening recently.

I don't know what to say now.
I just want to slack off and all.
Those who had been talking to me will know i've been waking up in wee hours in the morning.
Like 3 or 4 and all.
To mug.
Dun play play. LOL.

Alright i'll end here.
Bye.

Today was quite slack.
Things are well.
Other than homework.
Homework is a disaster.
LOL!.

SREENI NEVER COME.
THATS THE BEST PART OF THE DAY!

'NO SREENI HAHA!'

SUPER COOL.
Yes yes thinking of not seeing black sreeni's face for an hour makes me happy!

Otherwise, the day is slack!
I may be feeling happy about sreeni but well.
Due to the big drawer.
I can't think of anything that i want to type anymore.
I just feel like watching tv.
Or just sleep.

Yes,
I am very very very angry at my dad for inviting his kakis to our home for mahjong.
He knew well that we are having school tomorrow, still can invite!
I was grumbling at dinner time when i am super hungry but cannot eat.

-A Hungry Woman Is An Angry Woman!

The big drawer snapped open.
And it hurts.
No matter how big that padlock is and how striking the 'Out Of Bound' sign may seem.
It will still come out.
Plain sucky feeling, you knew it should no longer hurt but it still does.

It will just POP out of thing air.
And whatever you had seen.
Whatever that is in the drawer, you'll start to see it.
That's when you start thinking back.
That's when the muscle ache would come.
You may laugh on the surface, you know deep down you feel it.

How would you react?
If it was something you thought you had control of.
Till the very end, when you thought you are victorious, it just slipped out of your hands.
That's most probably the most torturous thing you can do to a person i guess.

Only when you really need something/someone, then you really realise you don't have that something/someone.
By then its kind of too late.
You only realise when you need it.

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I am stuck at home thanks to dad.
Dad thinks i had gone astray.
When i asked about today's Marina thing he brought up the police station thing again.
'You'll only know you had gone astray when you are in the police station. By then it's too late.'
I seriously hope some one can talk some sense into my dad.
-.-
He needs counselling.
Totally ridiculous.
Yea yea i am going with thugs and street gangsters.
I smoke and i drink. Happy?

He just keeps accusing me.
And when i asked him to stop accusing me, mum would use that to backfire at me.
No wonder the two can get married and have me.
Its impossible to not to see how this two are alike..

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I have a hunch that CT is going to be disastrous.
Don't feel good.

Let's not rake about studies now.
I am having a Pet's society National Day.
Other than dinner and the NDP show, i am in my room, pets society-ing.

I wonder how tomorrow will turn out.

I feel like i am suffocating.
Studies, family expectations, surrounding peer pressure.
All kinds of pressure.
CT is up next.
I totally have no mood to study.
I feel like its the end of the road.
Have the very bad feeling of that i am going to fail alot subjects.
Its not normal for me to fail a subject.
I am not trying to be arrogant or what.
It took me a nice couple of days to recover from failing my physics CT.
Now look at my physics madman(he never was a teacher in my eyes.)

I feel very unsure, unsure of how to play the next piece of my chess.
I don't want to get checkmate at this point of time after all my effort and all.

Go Ginkuan.
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Yesterday was 070809.
Pretty special eh?
I only realise when Mum was signing the car contract.
Mum and Dad decided on the new car.
Its going to be white.
Its coming in a week or two.
The new car is a monster.
Its HUGE, functions and all.

Its the Mitsubishi Delica D:5
Its not a VAN.
Its a MPV, with body kit and all.
Really intimidating to stand directly infront of it.


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Tomorrow is national day.
Guess i have to wish Singapore happy 44th birthday(:

With Love
Ginkuan

Arh this week is almost half gone.
Commontest coming in anth week or so.
Damn.
I still cannot get into my mugging mode.
Totally lazy as a pig.

Since today is the 4th of august,
4 facts it shall be.

1) I am looking hard for my happy place.
2) I am striving hard to create my happy place.
3) I am really really really lazy at school.
4) I bloody hate Sreenivasan.

Physics lessons is a torture.
Its just like suffering hellfire.
Horrible.
I want to go to my opulent sanctuary!(new words from English!)
Yes yes i am trying very hard to improve my 'grandiose' vocabulary.

School had been really really really dry.
School with 2I5 wasn't like that.
I was missing them, I am missing them, I will be missing them.

3S2 would never be close to what 2I5 was.
Half. That would be my lowest expectation.
3S2 is almost there already.
Time passes, things and people changes.

Oh MT today was the only 'non' dry lesson thanks to Ms Yau for not turning up.
I was totally laughing about Hush Hush the remix.
I was like frightened by its sudden picking up of speed and rock beat.
I was laughing at myself like an idiot.
Precelia was grooving to the beat with me.
It was a funny scene.
Thats probably the best part of the day.

Afterschool timing is normal.
Left school with Rouyi and Joyce.
The girls are in total different direction.
Otah-ed.
A girl with Otah is a happy girl!
LOL.
I ve been spending quite abit of money recently.
TOOMUCH.
Time to start saving.


Physics is totally SCREWED up.
Its so bad i want to burst into tears.
There is another test tomorrow.
Feel like just leave everything blank.

Its not my fault Sreeni sucks.
I dont even want to call him my teacher.
Its as easy as why when Ms Chen was my teacher i could jump from a fail to an A2?
Sreeni.
I could only pray i pass.
I don't want to screw all the confidence i got for Physics just because of Sreeni.
For goodness sake.
Sack bloody Sreeni away.
We would not be greedy.
We just want Ms Chen we would not ask for Mr Loh.

Lastly,
SREENIVASAN SUCKS.

BBQ wasn't bad.
Tried my best to help out when i can.

Didn't eat much.
Sad right.
I know Rouyi is sad she never eat much :D
The girls seemed pretty bored today though..
The guys which met us at the NTUC were nice to helped us carried the food.
So we did not really carry any food,cook any.
We just bought, prepared the food and eat :D
Our class guys are pretty cool in a way though.
Went swimming.
Thanks Sarah who lent me her shorts.

Dead beat for the day.
Dad says want to jog tmr morning.
I was still laughing at the band people when they had to wake up at reach school at 6.30
Seems i only going to have an extra hour of sleep more then them.

OR maybe i'll just skip jogging!
:D
Damn tired.
Guess going to stop here.
Its late and my eyelids are drooping.

Good Night!

My computer is finally back.
They changed the whole motherboard.
Which is like so cool :D

Com is still as fast as before.
Just one bad thing.
My typing is really really bad now):
I keep gettting the wrong keys and all and have to keep retyping!

Leaving for BBQ in while.
Half an hour later i was still dreaming that warh tonight can v late come home.
In the end my dad 'Before 10 come home arh!'
Then i damn sian so in the end we DEALED at around 11.
Mum said ' Eh you all buying pork arh!'
Means like bargaining and all.

Pretty lame.
I totally have no idea what we are going to buy at NTUC.
Its like OTAH idk have anot.
Hope it turns out fine.

I have to end now.
But the Printer software is bloody slowwww...
Gosh.

With love.
Ginkuan