LOL.
DAMN.
totally stressed out earlier on during hist lesson.
i am like wrecking my head trying to decipher what ms cheong is saying.

and her last question.
i think i did.
i hope its the right one.
if it is.
then i ll score :D
the last question.
made me think real hard.
whats the link.

wooo.
i got it.
dunno how many brain cells aged to think of that question.
hahas.

the rest of the day was easy.
fatmehmeh isint here today.
free period.
crapped around.
hahas.
home at 3 :D

lots of homework this weekend.

maths
maths
maths
physics
physics
physics
chem

things to mug for
HISTORY.
CHEMISTRY.
PHYSICS.

omg larh seriously.
all the memo shit all tgth.
my poor head.

sigh.
School Work. HomeWork. School Work. HomeWork.

precelia had been going home directly after sch this few days.
tskk

and.
the guys keep bullying jerlin this few days.
LOL.
i gta like strangle shaoyan to make him return jerlin's handphone?wallet?
its either one.
today.
jerlin's waterbottle.
LOL.
jerlin be honoured see this whole section on you leh.
XD

argh.and.
the stupid UG keep say i am funny.
its like everytime walk pass S4 and he see me he will like call me and laugh at me -.-
i dun understand whats so funny.
i dun catch the joke

w/e

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ahaha.
at least dog is taming it self this few days.
cool eh:D
i like it.
but there are times it went a lil haywire.
hahas.

but w/e

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time to mug :D
loves.
ginkuan :D

lol just let my dad signed the maths test.
17/25.
the one ms tan said i had improvement.

he saw my score.
he din say anything.
he complained about the pen he used to sign instead.

in chinese:
'what a lousy pen, you see sign already the ink so weak.'
then give me some JB.

get use to it.
my dad is never pleased with my results.

i din even bothered to tell him class highest is just 19
i think he will end up saying.
then why arent you the highest?

too tired to bother and talk back now.
i just need sleep.


i have serious sleep deprivation.

good night world :D

had the urge to post.
so here i am posting :D.
exams are near the corner.
totally upset by it.
i wna watch he's just not that into you.
tskkkk.
stupid exams.

lessons are pretty dull.
OH.
i am a CCA councilor(however you spell it, i cant)
and i am VICE CHAIRMAN.
chairman is that Mok-ku.
hahas.
i lost in scissors paper stone.
lmao.
hence mok is chair man getting the marks equivalent to EXCO
woah.
you zhuan dao larh.
not bad i VICE LEH :D

yuanyuan say we BHB.
lol.
who cares.
got point can liao.
some projects coming up.

ms tan says i am slowly improving on my maths :D
i am happy.
hahas.
i am using very vague words.
like.
i am happy. Lmao :D
today is a very tiring day for me.
lethargic.
i think i ll hit the sack earlier :D

basketball after school :D


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quit making it that obvious.
it tough enough handling a dog.
dont come looking for me you this persian cat.

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dont ruin my beautiful mood :D
so tired so sleepy hahas.

i ll go do some situps and leg lifting then off to lala land
i really bth liao.

till then.
ginkuan :D

jeepers.
next week is CT already.
ohman.
i havent noticed.
LOL
if it wasnt for yang baobao.
lol.

wokeup at 8.30?
breakfast.
homework.
homework.
slack slack.
thats pretty much my day already.

oh and there is some limited edition for pens going on.
placed my order already.
freaking excited now just gta pay payment :D


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idk how to explain how i am feeling.
Jealous? Envy?
aint no right word.

everything is on and good for you.
there aint stuffs for you to bother about.
you are pratically enjoying your carefree life.
i wish mine was like yours.
not indentically but at least close.
but no.
its far from it.

i cant be jealous of you for you are too dear to me.
envy still doesnt seem to be the right word.

LOL.

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get over it.
its so hard to race with you.
all i ever want is peace.
all you ever want is victory.

dont make me let you have the taste of your own medicine.
i treat people the way i want to be treated.
i aint doing to you YET.
because i dun like how it feels.

it feels like utter crap and shit.
not a tint of beauty.
just alot of ugliness.

stop it.

if thats what it takes.
i ll do what it takes.


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with love (:
ginkuan (:

alright:D
this is the 500th post.
even with the (: and :D
i dun feel high.
at all -.-
due to my ongoing concussion.
this sucks.
my back of my head/brain is pain ><
giving me a headache.
very giddy too.
i walk also can haywire.

damn.
bloody wangbadan that hit my head.
i end up crying.
warh the tears just boom.
then my tears came out.
its like.
walao
kinda ps.
but heck larh.
all classmates.
i5 and s2 der.
so its alright.

stupid man.
roar.

i still have some maths to complete.
but i will take it easy.
i dun feel like doing chinese lol.

my head hurts like #$%^&
damn.
i feel like pon-ning sch tmr.
but there is like i5 in old i5 classroom.
i have to go!
i miss them so much.

oh well.

till then.
with loves.
ginkuan :D

School.
Choir.

cold war on going with mum.
things just aint going the way i wanted or i wished.

Choir.
Kept trying for SYF.

Academic.
i keep failing my maths checkpoints.
my homework is always rushing.

Relations.
Complications.

Family.
Cold war on going.
Dad doesnt appreciate the effort.
and does not understand what i being through.

sis's test 75%
dad-warh ppl 75%.
i 76%
dad-you think this is very good?

wtf.
at my age.
a 75% is just like 85 in primary school.
wtf.

my dad just does not understand what i am being through.

so i thought.
if one day i succeeded.
i will not thank my dad for giving me the pressure to push me.
i will only praise myself for not crumbling under it.

So far in my memo.
my dad hasnt praise me for my academic.
no matter what my friends and i thought.
we may think hmm.
not bad quite well scored.
my dad never fails.
do you think this is enough? why other can get higher then you.
wtf.

from this sentence its like you expect me to be highest...
then.
why others dad earn like 10k a month you cannot be like them?
Why other ppl's father is MP. PM or president why you are not?
its the same logic.

so shut the fuck up and appreciate what i give you you bastard.

when the day i really cannot take it.
you are gna get what you derserve for not praising or appreciating my academic effort for past 15 years.

Seriously.

if all this issues carry on.
idk when i need the counsellor -.-
so sick and tired of all these.

maybe counsellor is a good idea.

Its Friday :D
saturday tmr.
which means.
choir.
oh man.
darn excited about the re auditions.
Ms Angila/Angela decided to give me a second chance.
she sees the effort i am putting in :D
weee.

i gta get it.
or else i will be drop dead disappointed.

will wake up and practise tmr morning.
guai enough ?

lessons today were a breeze :D
chem came and past.
English too.

had anth surprise test by ms tan.
History.
Ms Cheong FINALLY comes.
-squeals-
MUAHAHA.
lastly chinese.

we pratically wasted the whole day.
hahas.

lots of homework for the weekend.
tsk.
thats v saddening.
its raining now.
v cooling.

alright mum is calling.

till then.
ginkuan (:

Same stuffs.
School was alright today.
did not suffered random mood swings.
I am starting to like my new class:D
with cute ppl :D
ppl like.

xiao BOONNNN.
zexun (:
SERGEANT ONG!teckwu.
ALFRED ANG TECK SHIN.
Vincent pretty lee :D
aaron hahas.
and TEG!!!

oh and i simple admire sarah:D
she seems v cute .
at least she din have problems handing up her essays :X

see i like my class afterall.
sort of gathering with usual I5 ppl :D

our cards got confiscated by the guard.
TSKK.
LOL.

thats the end of the day :D

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pretty much well at concealing my feelings :D
thats good.

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till then much loves :D
ginkuan

School.
Choir.
Nothing much.
Pretty high morning i had.
Good recess.
Mission accomplished with yummy.
Dum was Really happy with her present :D

Choir in the afternoon.
Thats pretty much my day.

putting up a mask is tiring.
holding it on to it is even tiring.
only when you are alone.
can the mask be let down.

even when you are upset, dissappointed.
you have to smile when people look at you.
its amazing how hard it is to look natural.

the edge of dissappointment is in deep.
its not as if i did not put in my effort.
i am sick and tired of being reserve.
sick and tired being average.
i need to find my forte.
soon.
and fast enough.
before all this crap turn to become so much that i can barely take it.


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glad to see you strong and standing.
living up to it.
thats the way shexxaye.
i want to see your smile again.
your smile make the horrible feeling of knowing the end of the world but not being able to do anything.
Good luck and take care.
flash your smile again :D

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its amazing how i actually want to cheer ppl on when i am in such shit.
i know i will get over dissappointment.
i know i will.
time for homework.
time to sign off.

with love.
ginkuan.

P.S.
BIGO.
come online please :D
i miss talking to you already.
i will leave an offline message.
cya soon enough bigo.