i wna watch my She Diao Ying Xiong Zhuan now :D
i am addicted to it larhhh :D
MIO TV :D
but its gna be over soon.
tmd.
ytd roshawn spammed my phone.
LOL.
goddamn epic.
101 sms.
weihao was like.
eh gk your phone.
then i see omg 30 plus then we slowly see the no.tick on.
finally i off my phone.
reading was then over, went up the class, on my phone.
whole phone lag.
LOL.
then tick again.
70.....80.....90.... then i EH PREC SEE.
LOL.
then 101!
lmao.
i had a bad time clearing.
i din wna clear inbox.
my inbox from my bday till now leh.
maisiao siao :D
hahas.

stupid porkfloss.
that time Changi Rush so hungry ask you come my sch let me eat you dun want.
then spam my phone warh.
LOL.
just only if he is a real porkfloss.

sch today was alright.
aftersch was #$%^&*
thanks to dum.
she wants to be a superwoman.
hai me become sidekick.
super tiring i tell you.

damn.
maths homework.
lol I DUN CARE :D
hahas.

humjingpeng says that he wants to complain to my parents tmr at meet the parents.
but TOO BAD.
my parents aint going hee :D
complain say i bully him.
who start 1st.huh.
say me.
tsk.


hee.
mum's birthday is tmr.
gng icing room to design a cake for her :D
Pops is in charge of her present.
my dad has LOTS of ideas i tell you.
:D
hee.

alright
till then
:D

this should be a quick post i think.
wanted to post.
but no time.
this X factor post.
if i dun post i will explode.
its been in my mind for long

its about some X factor that some has.

X factor is something not everyone has i think.
this X factor is some thing that attracts ppl.
I realise there is just two person by me that has it.
its an Extreme Factor.
i just realise the other on today.
omg some ppl should be thinking that i am crazy.
the 1st person's X factor is fading.
the 2nd one is coming out so strong that is woooo.
attract ppl as in.
hmm. ppl just go to you .
thats what i am talking about :D

not some lesbo or gay or BGR whatever attract here and there.
its like really something.
ok if you cannt understand here then dun read on :D

finally i realise that some just has X factor.
hahas.
and i found the solution that i was looking for earlier on :D

knowing and understanding feels so much better.
ppl with X factor are hard to understand
i only know one person that has gone real close to them.
not EASY.
lol.
kay larh.

just X factor.
obvious i dun have right.
LOL OBVIOUS.

there aint no definition for it.
but well...
hahas.
there are just ppl who have and ppl who doesnt.
nthing wrong with having and not having :D

hee :D

time to do chinese.
damn -.-

Labels: X factor

EH YOU PEIHAN~!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY :D

old ah pek.
hope everything will be smooth going for you.
lastly.
enjoy your 15th birthday :D

Labels: Kor

ytd was mad.
precelia and jerlin came over for projects.
they are coming over tmr again.
LOL.

we keep forgetting to take things.
1st thumbdrive.
then collect photos.

we train here and there EVERYWHERE.
about like 2 bucks on travelling tmd.

LOL.
holiday starts (:
went back for lessons.
hee.
SS came and went.
DarrenK helped prec and i got some food.
thanks :D

councillors meeting.
hee.
me and boon v jian XD
hee.

i had an appointment :D
an 'appointment' with Bigo.
hee.
LOL he was laughing when i came online i told him.
oops.

i slacked the whole day away.
i need to start on my work fast.
oh man.
i am stuck with XCM now.
super cool.
just got Shadow Master today.
thanks Ken :D

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it wont be long before i would need you once again.
but there is a new problem.
who is that you?

haha?
laughing is the last prove of my sanity.

--

Just Stand Up - Mariah Carey, Beyonce, Mary J. Blige, Rihanna, Fergie, Sheryl Crow, Miley Cyrus, Melissa Etheridge, Ashanti, Natasha Bedingfield, Keyshia Cole, Ciara, Leona Lewis, Leann Rimes, & Carrie Underwood



The heart is stronger than you think
It's like it can go through anything
And even when you think it can't it finds a way to still push on, though

Sometimes you want to run away
Ain't got the patience for the pain
And if you don't believe it look into
your heart the beat goes on

I'm tellin' you that
Things get better
Through whatever
If you fall, dust it off, don't let up
Don't you know you can go be your own miracle
You need to know

CHORUS
If the mind keeps thinking you've had enough
But the heart keeps telling you don't give up

Who are we to be
questioning, wondering what is what
Don't give up
THROUGH IT ALL, JUST STAND UP!

It's like we all have better days
Problems getting all up in your face
Just because you go through it
Don't mean it got to take control, no

You ain't gotta find no hiding place
Because the heart can beat the hate
Don't wanna let your mind keep playin' you
And sayin' you can't go on

I'm tellin' you that
Things get better
Through whatever
If you fall
Dust if off, don't let up

Don't you know you
Can go
Be your own
Miracle
You need to know

CHORUS
You don't gotta be a prisoner in your mind
If you fall, dust it off

You can live your life
Yeah
Let your heart be your guide
Yeah yeah yeah
And you will know that you're good if you trust in the good
Everything will be alright, yeah
Light up the dark, if you follow your heart
And it will get better
Through whatever

CHORUS

You got it in you, find it within
You got in now, find it within now
You got in you, find it within
You got in now, find it within now
You got in you, find it within
Find it within you, find it within
Everyone: THROUGH IT ALL, JUST STAND UP

Labels: complications

the day i am able to tell you entirely would arrive when the day you open up.
truth flows.
not denials.
not lies.

thy truth.

movie.
with prec,mag,darrenK, lizheng and eugene.

its pretty diff.
its with UG this time hahas.
he sit beside me in the cinema.

lessons were alright.
was totally depressed and tired.
thanks to sports carnival.
i shall not say much here (:
extremely worn out.
we need rest too kay.

english test.
hahas.
too sleepy to think.
camp on thurs and fri.
some leader ship camp for CCA councillors.

sch ended with lots of homework.
damn.
LOL.

movie at causeway point.
we went to JP 1st then realise dun have.
went to causeway.
lunch.
was HUNGRY.
hee.
ordered Cookies and Cream milkshake.
it was only delivered in the middle of the movie.
i thought they werent gna serve it.

then marley and me progressed till this part super touching.
even DarrenK and lizheng were crying.
so there were plenty of sniffing around.
then Eugene asked me.
'eh you all crying or laughing?'

LOL.
i totally dun wna answer i dun wna have the crying sound to reply LOL.
LZ and Dk cried hahas.
i see Eugene just like sit there nothing.
lmao.
there was one part.
i was guessing with Eugene how many kids they had.
pretty confusing.
hahas.

LOL.
its was FREEZINGGG in there i tell you.
i was shivering when i drank the milkshake.
plus crying.
fking paiseh.
i purposely lean towards mag.
away from Eugene XD

ended woo.
Plenty of Swollen eyes.
XD
shall not specify further.
its not me ahahaha.
my eyes just like surrounding abit nia :D

kkay.
very tired now.
have not recovered from the Sports Carnival.

Congratulations 5S1 on getting Champ.
Congratulations 5S2 on getting second.
Congratulations 4E1 on getting third.

Good effort 4E4 and 4E2.

i hope i rmbed correctly.

right there :D
bye ppl.
till then.
ginkuan (:

was i blind?
what happened to me.
to only realise it till this stage when its so hard to turn back.

i should have been ready for this.
what taken me off?
the jealousy?
possible.
you always have something i dont.
talk about fairness. there is no such thing in the world.
never talk about fairness.
i should have been ready.
i cannot understand my self now.
i cannot stand unknowns.
unknowns.
left me blind.
left me lost.
who would.
pull me out of all this.
i can not place this on any one at this stage.
the only one.
would be myself.
would i be able to.
when i am blind, unable to know.
having unknowns around.
even having advantages.
no i did not had advantages.
advantages i once thought i had was null now.
it was nothing compared to that.

i should have been prepared.
what thing made me recoil this much?
did i even recoiled.
i think i did.
mentally i was totally unable to go on.
i was blind.
in a state of shock.

its not something i can go on.
its not something i can specify.
its not something i can say.
its not something others would care.
its not something i can move on ignoring.

its time to solve it.
last question.
how?

i cannot get it.
i doubt i would ever understand it.
till the day its open up to me.
till then maybe i would.
till then when it open up.
would i be there to see it.

i need a better understanding of it.
life is hard without knowing it.
without getting the true side of it.
unable to know whats is in or what it is is a torture to me.

till the day arrives.
i would still be in the torture chamber.

MAG.
you are gna be OFFICIALLY 15 tms.
rejoice you old woman :D

hahas.
extremely drowsy now.
sis say my lips are pale,

been texting zhixian the whole day?
hahas.
i think she is sleeping now.

dinner with BIG family later on.
cousins over.
i still feel sleepy.
i wna talk to bigo.
he was keeping me entertained ytd.
LOL.

sch tmr.
still thinking whether to stay up.
mag's birthday.
but very sleepy leh.
tsk.
sigh.

havent got her present.
no idea what to get.
come on suggestions please?

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i got injured everywhere ytd.
LOL.
plaster here and there.
knocked my elbow at my room door.

wapiang.
lol.

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ok i ll end here.
still very drowsy.
aunt is here.

till then.
loves.
ginkuan (:


P.S.
its so good not having to race with dogs.
so tired of it.