Caught Angels And Demons.
Thats one of the worse movies i caught.
The scenes inside is totally disgusting.

I should have just read the book.
The movie made my view on the book changed.

Ok i'll off the com now.
Dad is ^&*(_

Edit:
Yea so the movie was totally $%^&*
Horrible.

Caught the movie at Causeway point.
The Nachos there are so-so.
Maybe just because i wasn't hungry enough for Nachos.

Reach homed at 7.

Classbonding was horrible due the inactiveness of 3S2.

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Its not nice anymore.
I don't know if its something that can be solved.
I am the one that felt pressurized.
BUT i don't even know why did i even feel pressurized.
Things that you say adds on to it bit by bit.
You said its time to solve it.
Lets hope its true and it works.
Feeling pressurized just isn't the way it should be.

I feel breathless.

/Edit

Have been pretty worn out this few days.

Training today.
Wow i think i did not warm my muscles up properly.
My left Calf was like aching!
Like whole thing v tensed, now i walk also got problem.

Yesterday,
SCHOOL IS DAMN FUCKING WARM.
I was starting to sweat since 1st period.
Totally V sticky.
I keep performing my sticking ruler stunt.
To prove HOW sticky i am LOL!
V irritated by the stickiness.

Then went for choir.
They went' go into SYF formation'
Then i felt sort of humiliated.
I don't always feel this way, this time i felt its enough so i left the practise for 10th anniversary.
They asked those not in SYF to stand at the back first.

I was pissed cause.
Haven't I had enough of the back?
Not being able to sing with everybody?

They said they will slot us in later.
You mean like what, you have to find exceptions and place us in?
That DOES not sound right.
You may not have those intentions but when people listen to it they will understand it wrongly.
说者无意，听者有意
V simple logic.
Thats why i left it.
Doubt i would be turning up for tomorrow.
If i aint turning up, i ll go and find out for class bonding stuffs.

Mdm Tay placed me as I/C
Pretty troublesome.
Alot of things to settle.
Still need to prepare things to play etc.

Alright i guess its time to off the com.
Dad is $%^&*( at me.

Bye love(s)
Ginkuan

V annoyed by my mum now.
The moment she come back she starts to nag and nag -.-
Totally put off.
I am going to do my SS then i bring a cup of water in then she start crapping.
Dad won't allow me to go out.
Be it Badminton or Movie.

I am stucked here.
The moment my parents are back they just disturb everything.
Not that i do not want them to be back.
Just don't keep nagging.

I wish they just faster go Malaysia for holiday.
Then i have the whole house to myself.
Nobody disturbing me.
Well maybe just stupid Miser.

V annoyed.
Now is Dad's turn.
I was playing Combat Arms with Miser earlier on.
Then he came back nag nag, i went to do homework.
So he went ' Ask you do things you do homework, then just now play. No meaning right?'
I just kept quiet.
Ok mum is screaming again -.-
WTF is wrong with the two of them.

During Combat Arms,
Miser keep shooting me down -.-
I died at least a nice 6 times due to Miser.
I ll slap Miser the next time i see Miser.

Time to continue SS.
Bye love (s)
Ginkuan

New game :D
I love my miser.
Stupid Miser.
Niao like cat like that.

Labels: miser.

Today was alright i guess.

School was slack once again-.-
The only lessons we had today was Maths and Chinese, the rest were absent or cancelled LOL.

Collected the Class Tee during recess, mine, felicia,zhiyong and ChrisT's class tee was printed wrongly.
Hence we got to wait for the noon.
The uncle came in the noon and we got our shirts.
Paid. Then realise i am damn broke XD

Meeting was alright.
Sports Carnival next thurs.
Most prob another Meeting next wednesday.

I seriously feel that the councillors are not respecting themselves.
Sorry to say this.
But many are pretty sloppy.
You don't take pride in what you do then don't expect people to respect you.
Ms Chen says that they are trying to get some stand for us in the school.
Get a CCA councillors room.

Well.
Yesterday was kinda cool.
Had movie with the girls.
Night at the museum was cool.
But i wasn't able to concentrate.
LOL.

After the movie walked around for the girls than left.
Hahas.
After i left i saw a beautiful red volleyball.
I guessed A would like it (:

Left around 7, home at 8.
It was a good time.
You know what i meant.
Now i know.
But i think i almost get a fever.
My body was like fever on the way home.
Your fault larh.

Pretty tired, and feeling sick.
Thought was going to skip today's school.
But i did not!
I am too much of a good girl to skip school :D

Alright!
Bye love(s)
Ginkuan

Home Base Learning(HBL) sucks.
I mean like seriously, at first thought will be quite cool.

Slowly do then wth, struggle.
Esp Physics.
I have no bloody idea what on earth the PPT is talking about -.-
'School' is almost ending already.
I don't care actually.i finished my work pretty long ago.

Alright, 'School' aside.
Meeting the girls later on (:
I still want to watch angels and demons larh!
But we are watching Night at the museum.

Extremely sleepy now, kind of nauseous too.
I have no idea.
Maybe it is because of me turning in late last night.
I slept at 2am!
):
Thanks to Namza.
But it was really funny.

Alright.
I'll go change now.
I hope its gna be fun later.
And that Auntie is not going ):

With Love
Ginkuan

Oh my god, terrible.
I am like broke already.
I haven't been managing my money well recently.

Quite dissappointed though, i am going to plan my holidays properly so that i will have time to earn my money :D
Going out with the girls tomorrow.
We are going to promise ourselves, to only spend 15bucks tomorrow.
Since we are all BROKE.
Seriously, we are like people who been through bankruptcy.
Really tight pockey now.

The end of school today was damn slack.
We had an hour of free time.
Lessons in the morning were boring.
AND MY EYEBAGS ARE OUT.
DAMN.
I was like telling Dum, ' SEE, my eyebags come out liao ):'
But its really slight.
But still don't like it, i normally don't have.

Class Tee is kind of a headache.
Dad said that sending to school was better.
So i decided to follow Dad cause i think its more logical.
Why did i not think of that?

And Mum just screamed at me for my bill.
LOL.
She went 'You arh! Bao again i will cancel your line. HUH, 500 sms still not enough arh ?!'
Then i say'Not 500 is 1000'
Then my mum screamed even louder, making me feel stupid.
'1000 ALSO NOT ENOUGH? NEXT MONTH IF YOU EXCEED I WILL CANCEL YOUR LINE!'
Then i told Dad' if i know i don't say liao, scream even louder. if i know i say 100 only'
Then my Dad 'Ya' me. Then we high fived. LOL!
We keep high five during dinner LOL.
So funny.

I want unlimited sms larh!
Hee. I am going to be a good girl for the next month and let Dad be happy :D

Mum is scolding Sis because of her results.

I haven't told them my results yet.
I'll say my results on friday.
Oh my buddha, Sis says she cannot take Higher Chinese anymore.
Oh my god, terrible!

Geez, i feel for her now.
Well Higher Chinese is tough you know!

Arh whatever larh, there is nothing i can do for her.
Cheer up Sis!
I'll buy Kinder Joy for you! :D

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Though i do not want to break the status quo now.
But i have to admit how i feel.
Its so nice that i don't want to change it, for the bad.
If i change the status quo now, it will change for the worse one day and i don't know if its worth it.
For i am afraid.
I do not want to take the risk.
You'll understand would you?
I can't make up my mind, change it or don't change it.
Tell me would you?

--

With Love
Ginkuan

Things are really mono,flat now?
Idk how to explain, but time after school with the girls is always filled with laughter.
We play the craziest of games together.
Improve the game we played, etc.

Aizhen is coming back tomorrow.
You better get my souvenir or i will get angry at you.
Ha.
Results are pretty suck i guess.
But really proud of my sciences.
Especially Physics, i bet i mentioned this in the previous post.

English-55
HCL-62
EMaths-66
AMaths-59
Physics-71
Chemistry- 78.5
Social Studies-
History-

Social studies we only got half of our results but things arent really looking good.
History idk.I just hope i get at least and A2.
I am such a failure for this MYE.
IF my History gets an A2, i get a L1R5 of 14!
Oh my god, terrible ( inside joke )

Time for English and Maths tuition.
I cannot let all this subs eat into me.
I need to lower my marks by 4 marks.
Geez.

Alright.
Frankly speaking i am still very tired.
I don't know why!

I feel like a pig.

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I like the times i spent with you.
Doing the craziest of things.
Running up MRT stairs when everyone is staring.
My gosh.
Thats a ONCE in a lifetime experience.
Only after completing the running then i realise how embarrassed i was.

At least its an experience only with you and no one else.
I am glad i had it.

--

With Love
Ginkuan

Its an early Sunday morning.
So lazy.
Went jogging again :D

Ran more today.
Must shake all the Sakae out of my system.

More results are coming out tomorrow and i am getting pretty jumpy about it.
My most worried subjects are Physics, Amaths, Social Studies and History.
I wna Ace my Chem, Hist, E maths and Chinese( impossible )
):

Really tired nowadays, Post-Exams-Fatigue is not over yet.
Damn.

CCAs are going to start all over again.
I am going to be busy.
Monday-Choir
Tuesday-Badminton
Wednesday-Choir.

If i still don't go badminton Elycia is going to kill me LOL.

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I want to watch Angels And Demons.
I read the book.
Its v cool :D
I asked Mr R already he said see first.
You don't watch better tell me earlier i can ask others.
Dum maybe, or the girls.

Wooo.
Holidays are coming.
Its still going to be hectic.
First Week: Structured Remedials.
Second Week: Unconfirmed.
Third Week: AEM
Fourth Week: OBS.

So most probably i only have second week to rest.
):
There must be quite a number of holiday homework.
Damn.

I am stinking up my room now.
So smelly hee.
Time to go.

Bye love(s)
Ginkuan

Finally, all the exams struggle are over :D
Such a relieve.
I don't have to wake up at 3am everyday to study for papers.

Have not recovered from the Exam fatigue yesterday.
Today was better :D
Auntie is coming back today :D
That means.
NO more house chores.
NO more missing outings with the girls.
NO more unmade beds.

Woo.
Super happy.
Three weeks came and past.
And term 2 is almost over already.
Before long.
Its term 4.
Dum and Yum would be graduating already.
Then its going to be my turn for O's next year.

This sucks ):

Went to Sakae with the girls yesterday.
Mag came too.
Wow we ate alot i think.
Mag still wasn't full.
Scary Mag.

I got a stomachace after the buffet.
Wasn't v pleasant.
OH.
And i god damn put on weight.
Roar.
Time to start eating lesser.
I feel like starting apple diet again :D
Muahaha.

Oh and my mum is getting on my nerves.
She keeps screaming at house to do housework.
Oh please leh.
You got to know we don't do housework much in the past.
You suddenly throw everything to us.
Whats your problem.
Say we lazy.
Whats your problem say we've got to do everything.
We've got our own things to do for god's sake.
You said you got homework.
What about Dad?
We don't have homework?
Plus its our exam period.
Get that fucking idea into your brain.
Now that my papers are over.
You expect me to 24/7 do housework?
Over my dead body.

Mum,
Stop being annoying.
Its getting onto the nerves.

Oh she just shouted ' When Auntie comes back i am going to change alot of things'
I think that pretty much meant we are going to do housework.
But i don't care.

Remember?
Rebel Leader.

And oh i ve got my Physics back.
I was Elated :D
I failed my Physics during CT.
I got an A2!
:D

But v saddened by Chinese .
I barely passed.
Damn.
I need to improve on my languages.

I failed my functional writing too.
But its kinda expected cause why?
Ms WONG marked our paper.
LOL.

Alright.
I guess i am going to end my post here.

Lastly.
Happy Birthday Shinan.
&
Have a good trip Aizhen.

With Love
Ginkuan

Its really tiring really.
I have been waking up 3 am recently.
To study.
Goodness sake.
Its darn tiring.
I get tired as early as 9.

History History.
I think i'll go bathe now.
Then decide if i wna sleep.
Then study at night.
Damn irregular Sleeping is bad for my body.

Bye Love(s)

There are just too many things that come together and complicate things up.
Why do you want to complicate things up when it was so simple?
Its what you think in your heart, your mind and your soul.
If you want it to be that way let it be.
If you don't even want to try from my propective then don't even start.
If i have to keep trying.
If i have to keep seeing things i don't want to see.

I don't want to put anymore effort in this anymore.

Maybe if you haven't noticed.
I don't really care anymore.
I don't feel the pain actually.
I see it, accept it.
And not care a hoot about it.

Its not worth it.
Its not worth to feel the pain anymore.
Its not worth to struggle.

I don't even want to try anymore.
For i know.
You will not try.
You will not break your status quo.

I'll survive.

Its nothing great.
Accept it this way, I'll look for you when i need and cast you away when i don't.
Thats what you want too right?

Thats the best for me.
Cause the effect of this whole thing is minimal and to your advantage.
Happy Go Lucky.
Its my turn to be Happy Go Lucky.

I will do what i need.
I will say what i need.
I will listen to what i need.

The rest i don't bother, really.

And,
you don't have to be that obvious.
I know you are rejoicing.
But i don't really care (:


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Its history paper tomorrow.
Its going to be a tough struggle tonight.
I will end here.

Bye my love(s)
Ginkuan.

Labels: Boys Over Flowers.

Back from the fishing trip in malaysia.
But i missed the study date with the girls.
The fishing trip was soothing, really.
At least i didn't have to think of things.
I just had to relaxed.
Now that i am back, its time to take charge of my life again.
I have been letting my emotions run wild this few days.
My wild emotions seemed to annoy Mr R.
Sorry.
Mr R was like. Can you calm yourself down? You don't have to get overworked over trival matters.
Indeed.
I had a bad time trying to supress all those awful feelings.

Fishing was great.
Its cool you know.
The moment i got to the Kelong.
I was Horror-strucked.
I could not believe my eyes.

I told my mum.
' Its going to be a ONCE in a lifetime experience, i am never coming back here, i feel like i am abducted. I should have went studying with the girls.'

Mum was like,'Don't comment like that.'

Seriously i felt i was like abducted from Singapore to this hella place.
But slowly, everything seemed alright.
I had my first fish just two minuted after i let the hook down.
The fishes there are all v small.

Catching the first fish in minutes makes me enthusiastic you know.
I started fishing.
Until my third fish which was less than half an hour.
After that no more.
I got bored.

Wondered around the Kelong.
Then we played MAHJONG.
Woo, my dad actually allowed me to play.
I played with my mum :D
Mum, cousin and neighbour.

We are all rookies. Next to us was the Table of Pros.
My dad, Uncle Ng, Uncle Richard, Uncle Eric.

We played slowly.
Time just passes extremely slowly on the sea.
I was better than the rest of them in the Rookie Table.
I won a few times.
That made mum throw a tile at me.
Hee.

Went to Sibu Island next.
The sea is beautiful.
Its so clear you can see the fishes and jelly fishes very clearly.
We could even see stingray at the sea bed near the shore.

We played with the waves.
Just let the waves flushed us.
We screamed when there is a big wave coming in.
Its super cool.
Then the sand gets eroded.
It felt as if the sea is drawing you towards it.
I felt giddy instaneously.

Drank coconut, went back to the Kelong.
Everyone rushed to bathe.
I took my own sweet time.
Went fishing again(:
Till it was my turn to bathe.
Then it was Mahjong time again.
Its just very nice and relaxing.

Wanted to fish overnight.
Or mahjong overnight.
But i think everyone was just deadbeat.
Plus there wasn't much fish that night so we decided to go to bed.
Its cold at sea at night.
Really nice to sleep.

Morning.
Breakfast, fished, lunched, mahjong-ed, packed.
SHOPPING.

Nothing much really.
Wanted to buy running shoes.
Didn't manage.
1st,
Shoes there were nowhere cheaper.
2nd,
The designs were all fugly.

We just walked around.
Went to Harris.
Bought some stationeries etc.
Bought a new book.
Morning,Noon,Midnight by Sidney Sheldon.
Wanted to buy another book named Watermelon but did not in the end.

Went back to the car.
Then Dad drove us back to Singapore (:

Then thats how i end up home (:

Its nice really.
Really soothing.
Really relaxing.

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Now that i am back,
I've got to face it.
See what had passed me.
See what had happened.
What was done.
What was needed to be done.
What i need to do to repair myself.
What i need to do to get what i want
What i need to do to get what i deserved.
What i need to do to get what you don't deserve away from you.
What i need to do to get you feel the pain that you had inflicted on me.
What i need to do to get a hold of myself, my emotions.

When i was in Kelong, i was escaping from reality.
The short interval that i can use to forget the matter temporarily.
But its wasn't permanent.
What is done is done.
But it can be undone.
Undone by me.
I will do WHATEVER i can to undo it.

Thats a promise to myself.

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Pictures of Kelong upnext.

Labels: Relax.