It is a shame I am your lover.

Friday, January 02, 2009, 7:32 PM

i ll try.

damn douche shit.
i was right.
damn it.
this weird feeling came.
or rather.
i was anticipating it.
i knew it would come.
but i din expect it to overwhelm me.

i was glad.
afterall i took control.
or else i cant give a damn shit to excuse it.
most importantly it wasnt noticed.

it came out right to the door of breaking the door.
but i held it back.
pull it back then slam it shut.
but still some still escaped.
then i had to excuse it.

i never like that.
thinking about the numbers.
i thought its gna turn out right.
but i still got shit.

this sucks.
and i am dreading to go back, reminisce.
it just sucks.
and i have a hard time covering it damn.
it wasnt easy to hide something to be shown so easily.
damn.
i need to get over this.
and it aint gna be easy.

but i still feel unfair.
why do i also have to get this weird feeling.
over and over again.
this weird feeling always tag to me when i was in pri sch.
now i am in sec sch.
even though i manage to shake it off for awhile.
just a slight while.
now its coming back.
twice stronger.
everytime i kept hope.
that i will kick that feeling away.
but this time.
everythings seem to be going on to a dead end.
do i really have to start on another road?
i dont want to.
starting of a new road means selection the correct one.
and its limited. and every road seems to have alot of bumps.

should i hit a dead end or go to a road full of bumps?
i seriously need to think.
its going so badly.
screw the weird feeling.
it pulls everything down.
i need to overcome it
but how?
knock a wall out of the dead end would be the best.
but i need the energy too.
where is the energy when i am a dead batt?
there are nothing to charge me up.

there must be way to end this shit.
there must be.
1st i need to recharge.
i need a charger.
there must be something that can recharge me but whats that?

i will try.
try my best to recharge, knock a wall out of the dead end and carry on walking.

but whenever i look back into the past, i felt like an idiot.
this has to end.
i ll try.

it is a shame I am your lover



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