School.
Choir.
Nothing much.
Pretty high morning i had.
Good recess.
Mission accomplished with yummy.
Dum was Really happy with her present :D

Choir in the afternoon.
Thats pretty much my day.

putting up a mask is tiring.
holding it on to it is even tiring.
only when you are alone.
can the mask be let down.

even when you are upset, dissappointed.
you have to smile when people look at you.
its amazing how hard it is to look natural.

the edge of dissappointment is in deep.
its not as if i did not put in my effort.
i am sick and tired of being reserve.
sick and tired being average.
i need to find my forte.
soon.
and fast enough.
before all this crap turn to become so much that i can barely take it.


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glad to see you strong and standing.
living up to it.
thats the way shexxaye.
i want to see your smile again.
your smile make the horrible feeling of knowing the end of the world but not being able to do anything.
Good luck and take care.
flash your smile again :D

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its amazing how i actually want to cheer ppl on when i am in such shit.
i know i will get over dissappointment.
i know i will.
time for homework.
time to sign off.

with love.
ginkuan.

P.S.
BIGO.
come online please :D
i miss talking to you already.
i will leave an offline message.
cya soon enough bigo.