School.
Choir.

cold war on going with mum.
things just aint going the way i wanted or i wished.

Choir.
Kept trying for SYF.

Academic.
i keep failing my maths checkpoints.
my homework is always rushing.

Relations.
Complications.

Family.
Cold war on going.
Dad doesnt appreciate the effort.
and does not understand what i being through.

sis's test 75%
dad-warh ppl 75%.
i 76%
dad-you think this is very good?

wtf.
at my age.
a 75% is just like 85 in primary school.
wtf.

my dad just does not understand what i am being through.

so i thought.
if one day i succeeded.
i will not thank my dad for giving me the pressure to push me.
i will only praise myself for not crumbling under it.

So far in my memo.
my dad hasnt praise me for my academic.
no matter what my friends and i thought.
we may think hmm.
not bad quite well scored.
my dad never fails.
do you think this is enough? why other can get higher then you.
wtf.

from this sentence its like you expect me to be highest...
then.
why others dad earn like 10k a month you cannot be like them?
Why other ppl's father is MP. PM or president why you are not?
its the same logic.

so shut the fuck up and appreciate what i give you you bastard.

when the day i really cannot take it.
you are gna get what you derserve for not praising or appreciating my academic effort for past 15 years.

Seriously.

if all this issues carry on.
idk when i need the counsellor -.-
so sick and tired of all these.

maybe counsellor is a good idea.