It is a shame I am your lover.

Friday, March 13, 2009, 9:36 PM

complications. unknowns.

was i blind?
what happened to me.
to only realise it till this stage when its so hard to turn back.

i should have been ready for this.
what taken me off?
the jealousy?
possible.
you always have something i dont.
talk about fairness. there is no such thing in the world.
never talk about fairness.
i should have been ready.
i cannot understand my self now.
i cannot stand unknowns.
unknowns.
left me blind.
left me lost.
who would.
pull me out of all this.
i can not place this on any one at this stage.
the only one.
would be myself.
would i be able to.
when i am blind, unable to know.
having unknowns around.
even having advantages.
no i did not had advantages.
advantages i once thought i had was null now.
it was nothing compared to that.

i should have been prepared.
what thing made me recoil this much?
did i even recoiled.
i think i did.
mentally i was totally unable to go on.
i was blind.
in a state of shock.

its not something i can go on.
its not something i can specify.
its not something i can say.
its not something others would care.
its not something i can move on ignoring.

its time to solve it.
last question.
how?

it is a shame I am your lover



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