There are just too many things that come together and complicate things up.
Why do you want to complicate things up when it was so simple?
Its what you think in your heart, your mind and your soul.
If you want it to be that way let it be.
If you don't even want to try from my propective then don't even start.
If i have to keep trying.
If i have to keep seeing things i don't want to see.

I don't want to put anymore effort in this anymore.

Maybe if you haven't noticed.
I don't really care anymore.
I don't feel the pain actually.
I see it, accept it.
And not care a hoot about it.

Its not worth it.
Its not worth to feel the pain anymore.
Its not worth to struggle.

I don't even want to try anymore.
For i know.
You will not try.
You will not break your status quo.

I'll survive.

Its nothing great.
Accept it this way, I'll look for you when i need and cast you away when i don't.
Thats what you want too right?

Thats the best for me.
Cause the effect of this whole thing is minimal and to your advantage.
Happy Go Lucky.
Its my turn to be Happy Go Lucky.

I will do what i need.
I will say what i need.
I will listen to what i need.

The rest i don't bother, really.

And,
you don't have to be that obvious.
I know you are rejoicing.
But i don't really care (:


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Its history paper tomorrow.
Its going to be a tough struggle tonight.
I will end here.

Bye my love(s)
Ginkuan.