I can see from your reaction, you think that its purely my problem.

Fine if you want to think that way.
I told you.
Or more likely i hinted you.
This is going to be some thing close to a one way thing.
Until i was able to trust you again.

Things you do aren't making me trust you.
You don't seem to know when is the correct timing.
To me, looking for Shimona means nothing.
But you have to strike a balance.
You aren't.
Have you ever thought, when people ask me where are you.
I tell them Shimona.
People will start to wonder why, no matter how much i don't want to let others' words to get into my head.
Do you think its possible?
With you constantly leaving.

Worse today.
You bloody just walked in.
Without telling me anything.
What does that feel?
And you did that TWICE today.

I felt cheated.
With you just walking away like that.
You tell me you cannot locate us.
Than why did you not even tell me where you are going.
Maybe if you say i would feel better.
You don't have to report.
At least a need to know limit?

With Shimona within a 5 KM radius, things changed alot.
Things like how you react.
I still hate that part.
YOU BLOODY JUST WALKED AWAY.
Worse, when i texted you.
You bloody think you are still in the right.
When i said some stuffs.
You still thought i was kidding.
I wasn't kidding when i said i have my limit.

Do you know how annoying it is to want to talk to you.
But having anger holding me back.
My bloody pathetic ego.

You think you are right.
I ain't going to give in this time.
You think i don't cherish.

This time, i gave you your chance.
You screwed it single handedly.
Its not my fault.
I gave what i should.


You lost my trust before.
Its ain't coming back that easily anymore.
If things carry on like that.

It would just be a matter of time before things hits my limit.

You bloody don't even apologise.
Oh yea right.
Male Chauvunist.

Go on.
I am just sick and tired.

I am just pretty happy tomorrow is the last day of Aviva.
I wasn't able to enjoy Aviva this couple of days.
I was only able to enjoy the first day.

Aviva takes up
Money.
Time.
And due to some.
My mood was entirely hopeless.

Some maybe even thinking i am ridiculously UNREASONABLE.
But seriously,WHAT DO YOU EXPECT ME TO SAY.
When people asked me, ' Whats happening?'

What do you bloody expect from me.
This is extremely aggravating.

Tired.
Thats the word.
Pressure.
Thats the word.
Aggravated.
Thats the word.

Sick and tired.